It's funny, faced with death from multiple tumors in my body,
I laugh
I laugh at the silliness of it all
The silliness of worrying about everything from love
to death
And how
I wanted what I wouldn't have
Never appreciating
what I had.
I wanted out
I wanted out of the black snow of Detroit
I wanted out of a cubicle job
I wanted out of my marriage
I wanted out of my limits
I wanted out of everything I had
for that which I would never have
And now,
instead of wanting out of this dying body
I want out of death
