Did you ever think, just maybe, I got it all wrong. That is to say, what is up, might be down, down up, black, white, white, black, light, dark, etc.
Take for example, our notion of heaven. Light. Brightness. Goodness. As opposed to dark, dull, evil. So they say.
Isn't it interesting that out of darkness, usually comes qualm, quiet, peace. Light a match, and it swallows all darkness. Some say that's a good thing. Maybe, but I offer to you that fire, caos, usually come out of light. So could those headed for the light in biblical myth, be heading for the eternal flames of hell they warn us of?
And so, therefore, when confronted with the choice to go into the darkness or light, would turning to the darkness actually be going into the light?
Think about it.
Could this be what Aleister Crowley was getting at in his Book of Lies,
WHICH IS ALSO FALSELY
THE WANDERINGS OR FALSIFICATIONS OF THE ONE THOUGHT OF FRATER PERDURABO WHICH THOUGHT IS ITSELF UNTRUE " Break, break, break At the foot of thy stones, O Sea ! And I would that I could utter The thoughts that arise in me !"
The Ante Primal Triad which is NOT-GOD Nothing is. Nothing Becomes. Nothing is not. The First Triad which is GOD I AM. I utter The Word. I hear The Word. The Abyss The Word is broken up. There is Knowledge. Knowledge is Relation. These fragments are Creation. The broken manifests Light. The Second Triad which is GOD GOD the Father and Mother is concealed in Generation.
GOD is concealed in the whirling energy of Nature. GOD is manifest in gathering : harmony : consideration
: the Mirror of the Sun and of the Heart. The Third Triad Bearing : preparing. Wavering : flowing : flashing. Stability : begetting. The Tenth Emanation The world.
These ten words are four, the Name of the One.
It dies, it gives itself ; to Thee is the fruit ! Be thou the Bride ; thou shalt be the Mother hereafter. To all impressions thus. Let them not overcome thee;
yet let them breed within thee. The least of the impressions, come to its perfection, is Pan. Receive a thousand lovers ; thou shalt bear but One Child. This child shall be the heir of Fate the Father.
Of all this did the Ipsissimus know Nothing.
Seven are these Six that live not in the City of the Pyramids, under the Night of Pan. There was Lao-tzu. There was Siddartha. There was Krishna. There was Tahuti. There was Mosheh. There was Dionysus. There was Mahmud. But the Seventh men called PERDURABO ; for enduring unto The End, at The End was Naught to endure. Amen.
There or Then ; for all that is, what is it but a manifestation, that is, a part, that is, a falsehood, of THAT which is not? Yet THAT which is not neither is nor is not That which is ! Identity is perfect ; therefore the Law of Identity is but a lie. For there is no subject, and there is no predicate ; nor is there the contradictory of either of these things. Holy, Holy, Holy are these Truths that I utter, knowing them to be but falsehoods, broken mirrors, troubled waters ; hide me, O our Lady, in Thy Womb ! for I may not endure the rapture. In this utterance of falsehood upon falsehood, whose contradictories are also false, it seems as if That which I uttered not were true. Blessed, unutterably blessed, is this last of the illusions ; let me play the man, and thrust it from me ! Amen.Mighty and erect is this Will of mine, this Pyramid of fire whose summit is lost in Heaven. Upon it have I burned the corpse of my desires. Mighty and erect is this of my Will. The seed thereof is That which I have borne within me from Eternity ; and it is lost within the Body of Our Lady of the Stars. I am not I ; I am but an hollow tube to bring down Fire from Heaven.
Mighty and marvellous is this Weakness, this Heaven which draweth me into Her Womb, this Dome which hideth, which absorbeth, Me. This is The Night wherein I am lost, the Love through which I am no longer I.
Verily, love is death, and death is life to come. Man returneth not again ; the stream floweth not uphill ; the old life is no more ; there is a new life that is not his. Yet that life is of his very essence ; it is more He than all that he calls He. In the silence of a dewdrop is every tendency of his soul, and of his mind, and of his body ; it is the Quintessence and the Elixir of his being. Therein are the forces that made him and his father and his father's father before him. This is the Dew of Immortality. Let this go free, even as It will ; thou art not its master, but the vehicle of It.
Dreams are imperfections of sleep ; even so is consciousness the imperfection of waking. Dreams are impurities in the circulation of the blood ; even so is consciousness a disorder of life. Dreams are without proportion, without good sense, without truth ; so also is conscious- ness. Awake from dream, the truth is known : awake from waking, the Truth is — The Unknown.
MOLENSIS the Grand Master of the Temple ; and of the GOD that is Ass-headed did he dare not speak.
This is the Seal upon the Ring that is on the Forefinger of IT : and it is the Seal upon the Tombs of them whom She hath slain. Here is Wisdom. Let Him that hath Under- standing count the Number of Our Lady ; for it is the Number of a Woman ; and Her Number is An Hundred and Fifty and Six.At four o'clock there is hardly anybody in Rumpelmayer's. I have my choice of place and service ; the babble of the apes will begin soon enough. " Pioneers, O Pioneers !" Sat not Elijah under the Juniper-tree, and wept? Was not Mohammed forsaken in Mecca, and Jesus in Gethsemane? These prophets were sad at heart ; but the chocolate at Rumpelmayer's is great, and the Mousse Noix is like Nepthys for per- fection. Also there are little meringues with cream and chestnut-pulp, very velvety seductions. Sail I not toward LAYLAH within seven days? Be not sad at heart, O prophet ; the babble of the apes will presently begin. Nay, rejoice exceedingly ; for after all the babble of the apes the Silence of the Night.
The Great Wheel of Samsara. The Wheel of the Law [Dhamma]. The Wheel of the Taro. The Wheel of the Heavens. The Wheel of Life. All these Wheels be one ; yet of all these the Wheel of the TARO alone avails thee con- sciously. Meditate long and broad and deep, O man, upon this Wheel, revolving it in thy mind ! Be this thy task, to see how each card springs necessarily from each other card, even in due order from The Fool unto The Ten of Coins. Then, when thou know'st the Wheel of Destiny complete, mayst thou perceive THAT Will which moved it first. [There is no first or last.] And lo ! thou art past through the Abyss.